It is really a Problem <h3><br></h3> <h3>Why I think you dont love me
Dear,
Im real sure you dont love me again. Every time when you come home, how eager I am to chat with you. I even become cautious to start talking to you, but you never give my warm heart any attention. Im driven to distraction, seeing that you never look at me. You say I have an enemy inside my head, but the truth is that this is what I see and feel about you. Tell me what I can do, since you declare that you still love me and need me. I manage both my work and my househood laboriously. Can you see how hard it is? In your vocabulary, what doe love mean? Im just so confused about your attitudes towards family life. Towards your wife and towards the relationship between you and me.
Now I tell you why think you dont love me. You must agree that in usual understanding people would care about the person they love and try their best to ease the misunderstanding, anxiety, distrust, pain and the like, between them, if there is any, see how would you do? You never help me when I fall into the dark, never comfort me when I feel so upset, never care about what Im thing now and then… in a word, you never try to remove any my negative feelings about our love; you never hop me, emotionally or psychologically.
What would you want me to be? A dull person? A person never shows any emotion? Everybody says that Im a cute young woman, but how you let me feel about myself? Its true I become hysterical, mad or furious, since Im the one who has already lost her love. I know how worse it is. In such a rotten mood, I will ruin everything. do you understand my way of thinking? You dont give me your love, the love I treasure so much. You know that kind a woman I am, dont you? What is the first priority in my whole life? Definitely it is love. But you wouldnt love, which makes me so sad, so upset, so… unbearable, totally unbearable, I need an healthy outlet to discharge all my sadness, my anger, my deeply-rooted self abasement.
I love you, truly. But you dont love me; you even wouldnt give me a face-to-face glance. Thats the whole thing I feel about our relationship. You dont sincerely take me as your life-long friend. The one who will sail with your life-long friend, the one who will sail with you through lifes dangerous sea. How said I am when I see you indulge yourself into the computer screen, refusing to speak any word to me. Do you know youre always on my mind? If youre happy, Ill be happy as well. If you speak bitterly and indifferently to me, you know how mad I become. If youre co-operative and kind, I will have most cheerful time all day, high in spirits, speak pleasantly. Behave gracefully, knowing that Im with you in the spirit, because I love you, you know I want to do things for you, to be an inseparable part of your inner world. Why you refuse me? Thats the only answer, you dont love me. Every body tells me you dont love me, people in the real world, people in the virtual world.
Dont you think we need a man-to-man talk? You just escape from me, denying every my effort. What would you like me to do? My darling, Im bewildered.<br></h3>