從此再無娘可喊瀟湘一劍 我的父親母親 <h1 style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 158.1pt; mso-char-indent-count: 15.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><strong>從此再無娘可喊</strong></span></h1><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 136.5pt; mso-char-indent-count: 13.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000"> </font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 178.5pt; mso-char-indent-count: 17.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">毛激流</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 73.8pt; mso-char-indent-count: 7.0000;"><b><span style='font-family: 楷體; font-size: 10.5pt; font-weight: bold; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000"> </font></span></b></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 73.8pt; mso-char-indent-count: 7.0000;"><b><span style='font-family: 楷體; font-size: 10.5pt; font-weight: bold; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="楷體">娘，娘，娘，東邊出太陽，雞婆帶崽崽，我要跟著娘。</font></span></b></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 137.05pt; mso-char-indent-count: 13.0000;"><b><span style='font-family: 楷體; font-size: 10.5pt; font-weight: bold; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000"> —— 自編童謠</font></span></b></p><p style="margin: 0pt;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000"> </font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000"> </font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000"> </font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><font color="#000000"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font face="宋體">我是</font></span><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font face="宋體">在淚眼婆娑和鼻子發(fā)酸的這一刻，完成這個標題的。</font></span></font></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">寫下這個標題，我?guī)缀跏曂纯?，不能抑制。一種被壓制得太深和沒有來得及釋放出來的悲嗆，宛如火山般地噴涌而出。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">對于我的母親，從小到大，我只有一個稱呼</font><font color="#000000">“娘。”</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">在娘面前，我從未叫過</font><font color="#000000">“母親”“媽媽”“姆媽”這類詞語，“娘”，成了烙印在我骨骼里最美、最親昵地稱呼。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">我是無法用語言去描寫</font><font color="#000000">“娘”這個字蘊含的詞義的。一切的語言和文字詮釋，在“娘”字前都顯得非常的蒼白和無力。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">娘，是我心中的輪太陽。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">這是娘臥病床榻時對我說的。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">娘清楚自己即將蠟燭成灰，于是，努力尋找一些我丟失了的記憶，讓昏暗余光，照亮我尋找丟失在夜色中的長長記憶。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">娘說，在我七歲時的某個夏日清晨，娘帶著我到石嶺村大舅家挑煤。走到近子嶺，天還蒙蒙亮。近子嶺古木森森，還有很多鬼怪傳說。膽小的我害怕地扯著娘的后衣襟踉蹌而行。我的害怕讓娘有所知覺，連忙用手把我拉過去，呵護在腋窩下。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">潭水，是父親詩文中寫得最多的一條河流，而我，對于這條河流又是格外的陌生，我不知道它從哪里來，又從哪里去，它不屬于我，也不是從娘身上剪下來的臍帶，給我的，唯有至今淡淡印記中的一座高聳、且搖搖晃晃的獨木橋。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">人到橋邊，太陽還沒有露出頭來。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">潭水翻滾。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">高聳的獨木橋在這個微涼的清晨，給人一種怯心的寒。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">娘說，等太陽出來，娘帶你過河。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">我說，娘，你是我心中的太陽，跟著你，不怕！</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">娘和我說這回憶時，瘦骨嶙峋的手很有力地攥住我的手，讓我的手竟然有些痛徹。我知道，娘要把她能夠尚存的記憶全部傳遞給我。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000"> </font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">我是一直不愿意說到</font><font color="#000000">“跪”這個詞語的。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">男兒膝下有黃金。我打小就被這句話的含義所禁錮，以至于在我童年的記憶深處，無論打架、逃學(xué)，跟兒時朋友做一些惡作劇被人告上門來，娘便責(zé)令我跪下認錯，我寧愿選擇挨打，也絕不下跪。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">娘打我下手很重，我的左額上，還有娘用齒釘耙傷害時的印痕。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">沒有責(zé)罵和打過任何一個孩子的父親，見娘鞭笞太重，就說，打一下算了，別往死里打。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">娘就怒氣沖沖地對父親說，不肯認錯，打死他算了！</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">父親說，打死了吃得？</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">我用眼狠狠地瞪著一臉怒氣的娘，在心里暗暗發(fā)誓，終有一天，我要遠遠地逃離這個家，不再回來！</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000"> </font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">草，從泥土里探出頭來，才有它原本的清香。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">鳥，飛倦了，就要尋找來時的回家路。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">我是從娘身上的土壤中破土而出的小草。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">我是娘手心里飛出去，又在疲倦中歸巢的小鳥。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">五月的黃昏，殘陽如血，是我哭紅了的雙眼。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">拎著行囊走到娘的病榻前，我的膝蓋不由自主地彎了下去，我雙腳跪在娘的前面，在淚水模糊的視線里不斷地呼喚</font><font color="#000000">“娘—娘—”</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">娘，在昏睡著。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">坐在娘的床前，我輕輕地撫摸娘干癟的臉龐，我把娘白如銀絲的發(fā)用指頭一次次地梳理，然后，抓住娘的手心，貼在我的額頭，一遍遍地親吻，責(zé)怪自己不應(yīng)該在娘病重的日子獨自遠行。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">娘微暖的手指動了。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">娘原本好看的雙眼皮動了。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">我哭著告訴娘，兒子回來了，回來伺候您了。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">娘側(cè)過頭，有些內(nèi)疚，又緩緩地說，我現(xiàn)在麻木了，也曉不得出眼淚水了。崽，你別哭了，幾十歲的人了，還在娘面前跪著哭，會讓人笑話的，站起來，別哭，你是不輕易下跪的人，娘曉得，心里明白。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">我把頭埋在娘的手心嚎啕大哭。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">在我的哭聲里，樹葉黃了，秋也涼了。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">娘拍拍我的手，我想喝一口清湯寡水的稀飯，你煮給我吃。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">我哽咽著問，還有您喜歡吃的擂缽燒辣椒？</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">娘點點頭，閉上眼睛。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000"> </font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">這是一個永遠讓我難以忘懷的日子。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">時間定格在</font><font color="#000000">2020</font><font color="#000000"><font face="宋體">年</font><font face="Calibri">8</font><font face="宋體">月</font><font face="Calibri">19</font><font face="宋體">日（七月初一）。</font></font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">民間習(xí)俗，這天是大開鬼門關(guān)中元節(jié)的頭一天。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">娘選擇在這天中午</font><font color="#000000">13</font><font color="#000000"><font face="宋體">時</font><font face="Calibri">08</font><font face="宋體">分駕鶴西去，我正在由長沙趕回零陵的火車上，接到消息，我感覺到胸口堵塞著一團無名的東西，它不斷地要跳躍出來，不斷地在撕裂我的胸膛。我的淚水不斷地奔涌而出，我需要撕心裂肺般地慟哭，我需要對著曠野，在哭聲中呼喚我的娘！</font></font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">最終，我在無人的過道處，在列車的</font><font color="#000000">“哐當”聲中，面向家的方向，跪在地上，用血和淚揉織的絕望，喊出了悲絕的聲音！</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">娘</font><font color="#000000">—</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt;"><span style='font-family: Calibri; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋體;'><font color="#000000"> </font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">我是在淚水的伴陪下，走近娘身邊的。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">我是在兩行痛楚的淚水中再一次跪在娘面前的，而此時，任由我悲天嗆地的哭喊，娘的手心不再溫暖，娘好看的雙眼皮不再睜開。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">我知道，娘再也不會開口說</font><font color="#000000">“崽，別哭了，幾十歲的人了，還在娘面前跪著哭，會讓人笑話的</font><font color="#000000"><font face="Calibri">......</font><font face="宋體">”</font></font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">我還知道，此生，我再也無娘可喊了！</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">我為娘梳理散落在眉睫的銀絲。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">我摩挲娘飽經(jīng)風(fēng)霜的面龐。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">我在娘冰冷的額頭，留下此生再無娘可喊的唇印。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="宋體">我在淚光中對不再有知有覺的娘說，娘，您在病中告訴我，小時候，我就把您當做東邊初升的紅太陽?，F(xiàn)在，兒子把它編成一首童謠，唱給您聽，而今后，那輪冉冉升起的太陽，就是我心中永遠的娘！</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 楷體; font-size: 10.5pt; font-weight: normal; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="楷體">娘，娘，娘，</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 楷體; font-size: 10.5pt; font-weight: normal; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="楷體">東邊出太陽，</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 楷體; font-size: 10.5pt; font-weight: normal; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="楷體">雞婆帶崽崽，</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 楷體; font-size: 10.5pt; font-weight: normal; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000" face="楷體">我要跟著娘。</font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000"> </font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000"> 2020.8.26<font face="宋體">，草就于古潭州韭菜園</font></font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000"> </font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: Calibri; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋體;'><font color="#000000"> </font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: 宋體; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-ascii-font-family: Calibri; mso-hansi-font-family: Calibri; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt;'><font color="#000000"> </font></span></p><p style="margin: 0pt; text-indent: 21pt; mso-char-indent-count: 2.0000;"><span style='font-family: Calibri; font-size: 10.5pt; mso-spacerun: "yes"; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0000pt; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋體;'><font color="#000000"> </font></span></p> 母親與她的孩子們 1978年，我們一家攝于零陵地委大院 2020年春節(jié)在南津渡大壩