<p class="ql-block">35.</p><p class="ql-block"> </p><p class="ql-block">DISENCHANTMENT</p><p class="ql-block"> </p><p class="ql-block">It dropped so low in my regard</p><p class="ql-block">I heard it hit the ground,</p><p class="ql-block">And go to pieces on the stones</p><p class="ql-block">At bottom of my mind;</p><p class="ql-block"> </p><p class="ql-block">Yet blamed the fate that fractured, less</p><p class="ql-block">Than I reviled myself</p><p class="ql-block">For entertaining plated wares</p><p class="ql-block">Upon my silver shelf.</p><p class="ql-block">——————</p><p class="ql-block">它在我心里一落千丈，</p><p class="ql-block">我聽見它砸在地面，</p><p class="ql-block">迎上我心底的亂石，</p><p class="ql-block">碎成片片。</p><p class="ql-block"> </p><p class="ql-block">我怨命運(yùn)將它擊碎，</p><p class="ql-block">卻更恨自己有加——</p><p class="ql-block">竟把鍍金的假貨，</p><p class="ql-block">擺上我的銀架。</p> <p class="ql-block">嘉木試譯《幻滅》</p> <p class="ql-block">I have a king who does not speak;</p><p class="ql-block">So, wondering, thro' the hours meek</p><p class="ql-block">I trudge the day away,—</p><p class="ql-block">Half glad when it is night and sleep,</p><p class="ql-block">If, haply, thro' a dream to peep</p><p class="ql-block">In parlors shut by day.</p><p class="ql-block"> </p><p class="ql-block">And if I do, when morning comes,</p><p class="ql-block">It is as if a hundred drums</p><p class="ql-block">Did round my pillow roll,</p><p class="ql-block">And shouts fill all my childish sky,</p><p class="ql-block">And bells keep saying 'victory'</p><p class="ql-block">From steeples in my soul!</p><p class="ql-block"> </p><p class="ql-block">And if I don't, the little Bird</p><p class="ql-block">Within the Orchard is not heard,</p><p class="ql-block">And I omit to pray,</p><p class="ql-block">'Father, thy will be done' to-day,</p><p class="ql-block">For my will goes the other way,</p><p class="ql-block">And it were perjury!</p><p class="ql-block">——————</p><p class="ql-block">我侍奉一位沉默不言的君王，</p><p class="ql-block">于是我溫順地熬過(guò)漫長(zhǎng)時(shí)光，</p><p class="ql-block">在彷徨里一步步捱過(guò)白晝——</p><p class="ql-block">夜寢時(shí)才稍感安詳，</p><p class="ql-block">盼著能在夢(mèng)里，悄悄窺見</p><p class="ql-block">白日里緊閉的廳堂。</p><p class="ql-block"> </p><p class="ql-block">倘若我真的窺見了，</p><p class="ql-block">清晨到來(lái)時(shí)，</p><p class="ql-block">就像上百面鼓在我枕邊隆隆，</p><p class="ql-block">吶喊聲填滿我兒時(shí)的天空，</p><p class="ql-block">靈魂深處的尖塔上，</p><p class="ql-block">鐘聲一直宣告著“成功”！</p><p class="ql-block"> </p><p class="ql-block">可倘若我沒(méi)能窺見，</p><p class="ql-block">便聽不見果園里的小鳥啼唱，</p><p class="ql-block">我今天也省去了禱告——</p><p class="ql-block">說(shuō)“天父啊，愿你的旨意得償”，</p><p class="ql-block">因我的心意早已偏向另一方，</p><p class="ql-block">那樣的禱告是謊。</p><p class="ql-block"><br></p><p class="ql-block">白日恭謹(jǐn)，如侍國(guó)王</p><p class="ql-block">夜晚創(chuàng)作，夢(mèng)筆生花</p><p class="ql-block">白日里，詩(shī)人扮演著安靜順從的仆人角色；但到了夜晚，她的思緒逃向那些清醒時(shí)被“關(guān)閉”的“客廳”。</p><p class="ql-block">這些客廳代表著被禁止的思想、她自身的欲望，或是她的詩(shī)歌等等。只有在夜里、“國(guó)王”不再注視時(shí)，她才感到真正活著。詩(shī)行在筆下跳躍，如有神助。</p> <p class="ql-block">嘉木試譯《忐忑》</p> <p class="ql-block">LOST FAITH</p><p class="ql-block"> </p><p class="ql-block">To lose one's faith surpasses</p><p class="ql-block">The loss of an estate,</p><p class="ql-block">Because estates can be</p><p class="ql-block">Replenished, — faith cannot.</p><p class="ql-block"> </p><p class="ql-block">Inherited with life,</p><p class="ql-block">Belief but once can be;</p><p class="ql-block">Annihilate a single clause,</p><p class="ql-block">And Being's beggary.</p><p class="ql-block"> ——————</p><p class="ql-block">失去信仰，</p><p class="ql-block">比失去家產(chǎn)更沉重，</p><p class="ql-block">因?yàn)槲镔|(zhì)資產(chǎn)可以重新積攢，</p><p class="ql-block">信仰一旦失去便不再。</p><p class="ql-block"> </p><p class="ql-block">“信仰”是與生俱來(lái)的授贈(zèng)，(注)</p><p class="ql-block">一生只能擁有一次；</p><p class="ql-block">摧毀任一條信念，</p><p class="ql-block">生命便會(huì)處于赤貧。</p><p class="ql-block"><br></p><p class="ql-block">注：Belief 與前文的 faith 是近義詞，但是狄金森的理解是二者有細(xì)微的不同，故加引號(hào)以區(qū)分。</p><p class="ql-block">信仰是一整套、完整、不能拆的東西，</p><p class="ql-block">只要碎掉一小部分，整座精神大廈就會(huì)塌掉。</p><p class="ql-block"><br></p> <p class="ql-block">嘉木試譯《失去信仰》</p>